This is one of my favorite poems. I think it was the first I wrote about what I was feeling which is why its quite brutally honest. I never showed this poem to anyone before especially not my family – they’d probably freak. Anyway, I’m a hell of a mess – until now – but I guess I like me that way. =) This poem was written about 2 years ago and since I don’t really have any pics to go with it, I’ll include a pic on my birthday of this year. I wrote this only about 12 days from my birthday at that time. And no. I don’t feel this way anymore.

Pic taken on my 19th Birthday

God forgive me for what I’ve been thinking
A blade in sight is so appealing
I cry now, losing all of me
Not knowing how much I left for free

Keep me now, keep me unfolded
Help me, because it’s what I’ve dreaded
So tempting, a crime indeed
The devil awaiting, my soul’s in bid

Strengthen me now
My faith’s all gone
Love’s such a tired word
I’m losing all my fighting sword

Eyes swollen, tears run dry
Heavy breathing, I don’t know why
Pain, emptiness and loneliness I feel so deep
A cliff I see, so good, yet steep…

12.10am March 18, 2007