I wrote this poem about two years ago, I was in a destructive relationship. I think I was more into that person because I simply liked the idea of being in love. I don’t really remember what happened that night that I wrote this poem. I must’ve been drunk or something, but I probably was in a low point in my life. Anyway, at 17 at that time, my parents didn’t want me to have a boyfriend and all that, so when I was in that relationship, I was so scared that my parents would do something about us again that I simply wanted to take the out road (break up). It was easier than having to keep facing my parents’ and feel guilty. It’s even got a date and the name of the guy I used to date (I just typed this out of my notebook).

Young Love and Break ups

Without a doubt I’m so in love
With you I found more than I have
Now I don’t know what to face
With me I think it’s such a big case.

I feel I’m so immature
Now I don’t know what’s in the future
Deeply in love I don’t know what’s with you
You is all I see, and that’s all so true.

Never been so serious before in life
So in love, yet so much in strife
Falling more, I don’t know why
Holding back my feelings is too much of a lie.

I don’t want to see you hurt
Too much of me, so little of my worth
I love you so, can’t you see all this?
Loving you is too much of a sinful bliss.

11.06pm, March 21, 2007
-jherson-

Young Love

I think when you’re in such a young age, you can make decisions simply out of how you’re feeling. The fact is, when you’re too young, too immature, too self-absorbed, you don’t think about consequences, and all you want is that happy, loving feeling that you can’t really have unless you know who you are and you’ve achieved what you want in life. You think you’re in love, you want to be with this person, but in the end, when you’re at a point in your life when there’s more to life than being in love, you realize that the feeling of love is not really enough to last a lifetime. That’s when you finally know that maybe you’re not really that in love after all. And I think that’s because you don’t know who you are yet and you haven’t established or achieved anything for yourself yet.