It’s Christmas again. It seems like just a few days ago when the last Christmas had passed. Last year I vowed to be a better person. I don’t think that worked very much. I don’t feel like a better person at all. This year. What can I say this about this year. I lost much more than I gained. I lost some very, very important things to me. I lost the one thing I have really, really liked and I didn’t realize it until now. I guess right now I’m in mourning for it. I built everything I had into it. I blame myself for losing it. I guess that’s what they don’t understand. They’re not me. They don’t get it. They don’t have the same pressure. So this Christmas, everything’s different. I’m such a different person now I can’t even recognize myself anymore.

1. Peace of Mind: if there was one thing I really, really want to have this Christmas it would be a peace of mind. For all those who do not know, don’t ask.
2. To finally move on and forgive myself. Again, for those who do not know, don’t ask.
3. A necklace. Something that would constantly remind me of what has happened this recent days.
4. A paycheck from Odesk. Odesk is the other one thing I haven’t lost yet. If I get a paycheck from Odesk, I’d be really, really happy.
5. Cash. I really want cash so that I’d be able to have some capital for my own line. Not really my own line, but my own design of clothes.
6. A shih tzu. Haha. Such a far cry from a wish list. I just want something to take care of. Or maybe a companion when I’ve got the blues.
7. Opaque tights. I want a set of them, green, purple, yellow and blue and red. Really cool.
8. Heels. Comfy heels. I need new heels that I can wear all the time and not feel much pain.
9. Gladiator sandals. Although the house is filled with them, I don’t have that much spare money to splurge on glads for myself.
10. Dress. Any dress. I really like dresses now so I wouldn’t mind a new dress.
11. A new phone. I’m not really into material stuff this year and I just want a new phone so that I don’t have to keep looking at my poor naked phone and feel sorry for it.
12. An Iphone. I just realize how good it would be if I had this too. I could go to school and work at the same time. Although it is so expensive, I could still dream right?