It’s crazy how summer is almost over. Just a few weeks and we’d be back in school again. Actually, I don’t think it’s summer anymore. It’s been raining really hard the past few days and there’s a storm coming up. It’s really sad that I never really got to enjoy my summer. My parents were here at the first part of it, and to tell you the truth, we didn’t get along that well for the first 2 weeks of April. Then by the 4th week of April, when they had gone back to PNG, well, things got worse between us. I had summer, and we had our finals by the first week of May. Then by the next week, we had our enrollment. I had been running around trying to find a job and all but at the end, its so hard because my schedule is an all day schedule. It’s really frustrating. I didn’t even feel like I rested! Was it even summer? Haay..

I want to go somewhere. I want to escape. You know in movies, when someone looks for a place to shout? Like, the girl in Princess Hours? And Marrissa in the O.C? well, I want to go to Tagaytay. I want to scream at the top of my lungs. I even want to go to that restaurant in Tanay where they have an anger management therapy, were the customer buys something and then throws it at the wall made especially for them. It’s good. I think it would really help people.

Sometimes, I think I’m such an angry person. Yes, I laugh, I seem like a very stable person but inside, I think I hurt a lot more than I realize. I’m lonely. I think. I kind of want a boyfriend. Kinda. Pathetic huh? But somewhere deep down inside, I feel I’m not ready. I don’t really know why. I’m just a real mess right now. I don’t know who I have feelings for anymore. I don’t know who I’m angry at. Maybe I should get some therapy. Am I crazy?

It’s really frustrating, you know. I don’t know how to deal with what’s going on anymore. I just keep laughing it off like I don’t have any problems. But I do. And it only eats me up the more I avoid it.

This is my 3rd blog entry today. I just suddenly got an itch for writing again.
I miss this. Writing really used to be my bestfriend. I used to always write sappy poems that relates to my mood. I don’t remember the last time I wrote. I think we still had class then and I was a bit broken hearted that time. That was this year. I was such a sap then. Haha.

Anyway, speaking of frustration, I actually guessed 2 of the highest priced words in Games Uplate Live Season 4. Too bad, they didn’t call me. Frustrating!