Queen Biyachessa » Break Ups

Over

Biyachessa — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 18:58:12 +0000

This is the last in the Playboy series. Hopefully, I find someone else to inspire me like he did. I’m not really sad. In fact, I’m quite happy it’s over. Just for everyone to know, I finally ended it with him. I told him I didn’t feel any security with him and wasn’t ready for a relationship yet. I guess it’s true. I’m not ready for a relationship with someone who can’t handle a relationship with me. I need someone better. Someone who’ll treat me way better. Someday I’ll find my prince. When I do, he’ll be so much better.

The days go by now slowly
Your inspiration I lose, I cannot feel
The days we had together just doesn’t feel real

I look across to you in the fields
Our minds reading, our heart’s at end
My heart doesn’t jump, I don’t feel the flip
The nothingness new to me

It’s sad I had to let go of you
It’s sad to know you won’t fight for me
It’s sad to know we’re not going anywhere
The ending, chaos yet a sigh of relief

I really thought we could have had something
Your playboy heart I thought I could change
It turns out I can’t and I don’t want to hurt any longer
Letting you go is a decision I hungered

The fact is we’re over and it feels so empty
Yet I’m happy, no toys, no games
My heart is safe and I’m not your second
The circles we play is not so fun
The point is we’re finally done

I don’t regret losing you
Nor do I regret wanting you
I do hope someday, before mountains crumble
And I’m 85
I do hope you’ve changed and live happy
Life starts the moment we’re over.

Over
-vaughn9.42am 11-29-09-

Can I Let You Go?

Biyachessa — Tue, 03 Feb 2009 15:27:00 +0000

Loving you has become a great challenge
I fought for you, yet I fought back
Helping you has had me lost
Facing now my choices and its cost.

Because of you I don’t know myself any longer
Being with you is losing myself
A sin now I must never regret
Falling in love is somewhat life’s bet.

Thinking now I only hurt myself
Crying out loud the wound grows
Knowing our future lies on an abyss
Yet taking me in just one kiss.

Who’re you to hurt me this way
I was once stronger than you
Only you sucked it out of me
I’m weak now, can’t you see?

Can I let you go now?
Or will I lose myself even more?
I can’t let you have what used to be mine
Losing myself is too much of a crime.

Yet can I let you go?
The pain, the scars of my past has come to glow
Fresh and still, when will it heal?
Then I hope time will reveal.

-jess010607-

brennabustamante

Jealous

Biyachessa — Tue, 03 Feb 2009 15:12:00 +0000

I watched your back as you leave
My heart bled, waiting to grieve
I saw you with her in the light
Your eyes twinkling, like stars in the night.

Your arm is wrapped around her arm
She’s so lucky, your touch is warm
I closed my eyes, to the heavens, I wished
I was the one you had sweetly kissed.

You laughed happily with her
As if your life had never been better
Your laughter still tingles in my ear
The laughter, I would so love to hear.

I couldn’t stop looking
My heart kept on bleeding
I’m jealous don’t you see
I wouldn’t be if you were with me.

I’m dying don’t you know?
It’s just a day after you let go
You should have known I’d be jealous
Are you doing this on purpose?

I despise the girl you’re with
Keeping my anger between my teeth
I’m jealous of her because she’s with you
Because of her, you left me without a clue.

brennabustamante

Sweet Lies

Biyachessa — Tue, 03 Feb 2009 15:02:00 +0000

I don’t know now what to feel
I’m losing grip of everything that’s real
Going round in circles
Unkeeping each mess.

I’m not sure of how to react
I don’t even know what’s in tact
You’re driving me crazy now
Slowly I’m going down.

I need to know what’s going on
For I may be ready when you’re gone
Make it clear so that I can see
And make ready what’s left of me.

Hold me close for one last time
As you whisper to me what’s on your mind
Enlighten my mind and unblind my eyes
Unfold me and free me from your sweet lies.

-adrian021907-

brennabustamante

Bleeding Heart

Biyachessa — Tue, 03 Feb 2009 15:00:00 +0000

My heart bleeds as I watch you live
Your life so different, too far from mine
It hurts to know I’ve fallen for you
Yet knowing our future lies on an abyss.

We’ve both been friends long enough
And though we know what’s ahead
I always thought I could handle
The pain, the hurt in struggle.

No matter how much I love you
No matter how much I care
Still though, I know it’s time
Letting go for my heart’s in line.

I have to let go now
Let go of you and each memory
We’ve lived through so much fun
Now it’s time to face each pain

I have to let go of you now
Though the pain hurts like grave
The only way for me to get through
Is to let out my goodbye.

Love is deeper than lust
Knowing that I have finally learned
In loving you I have found eternity
Yet with eternity comes a slow death.

For the pain in loving you
Would slowly kill me
Now is time to give you up
You deserve whom you love.

Once upon a time I fell in love
With you my heart sang
Yet acceptance is a must for me
So just know, I love you and goodbye.

brennabustamante