I love you, was the last you said
Before you forever closed your eyes
I remember, because I recall the pain
The pain I felt when you chose to let go
Crying so much in so many days
My eyes proof of all that’s left

No one holds me in the way you do
I’ll miss you so much
Your hands I used to hold
Tightly I held on, savoring the warmth
Now you’ve gone and I’m all alone
Dying in pain for my own loss

Why did you have to go?
Leaving me in this pain, feeling so numb
My heart bleeds knowing you’re gone
But then I knew you had no choice
You were in so much pain already
I understand you need your rest

Every night I seek your voice
The voice, so caring, so light
I stare at the couch we used to lie on
Reminiscing the nights we had together
Every moment I choose to treasure
Knowing you’ll always own a part of me.

To wherever you go, you take me with you
I’ll live my life still hoping you’re near
Keep watch over me, you promised you will
Things won’t be the same, now you’re gone
But wait for me and soon we’ll be together…
Forever.

brennabustamante

“I love you” was the last that you said
Before you left me hanging in such pain
I never knew you were so ill
Why was not telling me in your will?

Now you’re gone from this world
You were sick with leukemia
How could I have been so blind?
All I could blame now is my useless mind.

The blood I saw on your lips,
You, weakening and fainting
Are all visible signs of you so unwell
Why in the world couldn’t I tell?

I hate myself for being so blind
For not realizing, for not asking
Now you’ve gone and what can I do?
My life’s a total mess without you.

I’m crying, I’m dying
Could you ever even forgive me?
I tried to be the perfect girlfriend for you
Yet I failed to see and be sensitive too.

How could I have looked beyond the signs?
Closing my eyes to what was there
Which now has brought me guilt and pain
Killing me, driving me insane.

Why did you leave me so alone?
You left me hanging by a thread
Near death now that you’ve left me
I’m longing for you don’t you see?

Your voice, I keep hearing in my dreams
The warmth of your touch I keep seeking
You’re lips so soft and tender
Matching mine in a kiss of forever.

I’ll never get over losing you
Forever I’ll feel like a broken shadow
I promise, someday I’ll make it up to you
This time, forever showing my love so true.

brennabustamante

Tis my last night
I won’t try to give you a fright
It scares me more
To be out the door.

I’d be in a world I’d never known
Try to escape and I’d be blown
Chains, guards, what could be more
It could be worse, worse than a sore.

Tis my last night
Have to tattoo my last sight
There’ll be harsh entertainment
For all those who are content.

I’ll be there but I won’t watch
I’ll be thinking and I’ll rematch
What I have been
And what I have seen.

I’m a criminal now
I better accept it cause I know how
I was the reason I was caught
I have to bring justice and be brought.

Help me be brave
To accept and not to crave
For this silent night
Would have my last thought and sight.

Check on my family from time to time
And see if they are safe from doing crime
Farewell, my friend
Tonight would be my end.

brennabustamante