Although I do miss the time when I was in a relationship, I kind of have to give it to myself.
It’s been so long now since I last had a boyfriend. It’s kind of nice though. No more boy drama, no more tears. I’ve been around long enough to know that relationships are really hard to handle. A lot of relationships around me have been going tough lately and guess what? I’m their tell-off. Everytime I hear these stories, I kind of can’t help think that it’s better that I don’t have anyone to be like that to. I don’t know if that’s a good thing. I do miss a bit of extra drama. But I don’t know if I can handle it anymore. I keep giving advices to people and yet, I can’t take them for myself. I do miss it though.
Sometimes, I challenge myself. How long will I last without one?
Knowing myself, I’m a relationship addict. Inside, I probably really still do long for a boyfriend. But still, I really am hoping I can do without one. Not that I’ll push away everyone who’ll try, but I just want to find that one person I can be with for a long time. I don’t want to get hurt again.
But I don’t want to spend my college days forever single either.
I hope I meet him soon. I hope soon I’d get to fall in love like everyone does.
I hope I’d get to meet that someone actually worthy of my tears.
I kind of hope its soon…
*sigh*

such an addict to boy drama. Now that I don’t have any, I’m looking for it…
I should remember what had made me like this now.
But hey, I’m happy! I’m stronger and I’m contented. So it did leave me some good marks after all.
I don’t know. I think I’m running out of my mind again. Lol.
I guess once you’re out of love that’s when you’ll only realize how important love had been to your life.

I don’t want to look anymore. Everytime I look, I keep finding the wrong person.
Maybe it’s time he found me…

Time for my era-17 to end…